The movies make it look so simple…
the main protagonist faces major internal conflicts and he goes through a life changing journey to deal with himself and within an hour or so, he emerges a new person ready to change the world and make a difference.
If only it were that simple,
if only some mysterious energy or higher power had a destiny lined up for me, or I had a magical Guru showing me the way…sadly life is not like the movies or comics.
I think that’s why people gravitate towards superheroes so much, they give us hope to be something greater than ourselves, they’re the ideal version of human that everyone strives to be.
A person who defies death or makes the ultimate sacrifice for some noble cause; deep down everyone on earth has the desire to be,
I had a panic attack recently…it came out of nowhere; I can’t even remember the last time I experienced something quite like that, I felt like curling into a ball and disappearing from existence. I’m not going to reveal the reason why I felt like that but it made me realize how mortal I was; I mean I know that I’m mortal and I know that I feel emotions like most people and I know I will die one day but I try not to think about it.
Death is something that is a part of life, ironically; But we always go through life with the hope that we may somehow defy it. THAT’S the illusion of life, thinking that we’re somehow special, that we’re the center of the Universe, that we’re invincible; we treat life like a game where we’ll always emerge victorious yet we see every day that people lose, and we continue play.
Maybe they’re right to continue? Not to live in fear of death, maybe by doing that they enjoy life more? (Ugh…I’m just rambling on again).
Why do we live, if we eventually die? I think we all know the answer to that, it’s not about the destination but about the journey so the fact that we’re still on this, sometimes challenging journey, that makes us all superheroes, don’t you think? Just do you boo boo.
Photo: “Peter’s Death” Ultimate Spider-Man #160